Seasons of Change

I love change. I seek it, crave it and yearn for it.
I start to get antsy if things have been status quo for too long.
Change may come in little things with very little consequences but sometimes it is not.
It is big things with big consequences.

Ironically , I also deeply fear change. When things are good, despite the internal groans to seek change, I really deeply want them to remain the same . I want to hold tightly to what is good.
Why risk messing up what we have ?
But the hard truth is that in order to step into the new, we often need to leave parts of the old behind.

I'm in a season of change at the moment. The old is gone and I'm living with the promise of the new, which hasn't fully arrived yet .
There's the anticipation of what's to come without knowing exactly what's next . It's not perfect but I'm embracing it all.

Allowing the tears from the chapter that has long ended with the excitement of what is to come .
Learning to find the balance in the emotions I hold in each hand .
Learning to say it's okay to be sad and overjoyed all at once .