APRIL 2, 2022
Happy April! i’m beyond proud of you for surviving another month! please do give yourself a pat ! :D i know i’m late again, but i hope you had an amazing week! mine was fine, thinking about it now i think a lot of things happened. As i write this and i’m checking my gallery and notes ko para alam ko kung ano ba mga naging ganap HAHAHAH.
You sent a picture of your dog pala! forgot what the name is… i think it was… camila or was it carmela ? ang fluffy niya tignan haj </3 akin na lang yan HAHAHA. i sent you din pala a fanart of you as a basketball player, nakakaulol grabe. if i remember, you went out din pala no? i truly hope you enjoyed your outing. i also went out that day, t’was fun too! kaso we waited for an hour para lang makakain hahahaha.
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“normal lang bang maguilty kasi maganda buhay mo? ewan HAHAHA kasi hindi ba ang buhay natin, balanse? pero bakit 'yung sa akin these days more on nasa masayang side. joke, hindi naman masaya. peaceful lang. feeling ko tuloy, deserve ko ba 'to? then ayon kanina, habang nakatingin lang ako outside, ang dami kong iniisip. mas gumagana talaga utak ko kapag madaling araw eh.”
— Yes, it’s very normal to feel guilty kasi maganda buhay mo and yes sobrang deserve mo yan.
“sometimes, it's okay din to detach yourself from everyone. it's okay to leave everything behind for a while so that you can choose yourself first this time. it's okay to take a breather. ayan mga naiisip ko, and syempre gusto ko ring sabihin sa'yo 'yan.”
— you’re completely right. detaching yourself from everyone can also be an act of self-care. detaching from everyone is not selfish ano? it can really help us as you said nga “take a breather”. thank you for telling me this hayme :)
“it was supeeeer exhausting, pero that actually cheered me up (kahit na hindi naman ako malungkot). napaalala ulit sa akin ng trip na 'yon how beautiful my life is. it feels great to be alive and to experience this. i want to continue waking up para someday, mas marami pa akong magagandang makikita. cute lang ano? in a world full of negativity, mahirap makakita ng dahilan kung bakit gusto mong mabuhay. sinong mag-aakalang simpleng ganito ang magpapaalala sa akin kung bakit nga ba gusto ko pang mabuhay? simpleng rason lang, pero grabe 'yung binigay na epekto.”
— it warms my heart to know that your trip cheered you up. Also, how come you're so good with words, Hayme? I'm sure I've asked you that question before, but even if you keep denying it, I can't help but admire your ability to articulate your thoughts and feelings. It's truly reassuring to read those words. I hope you feel this way for a long time, it's nice to hear from you how much this simple little getaway has given you a great effect. Sometimes a short trip away from home is all we need ano?
Looking at the pictures and screenshots saved on my phone, dami mong kalokohan ha !! /lh HAHAHA (natin actually) “hahaha ako lang naman si hayme ang dentista mo sa umaga” ,, craulo k tlga AHHAAHAH hay, isa pa tong “what are your pronouns” banat mo , san mo ba natutunan yan? HAHAHAHAHA god sobrang chaotic nating dalawa, sana okay lang tayo </3 HAHAHAHA. Isa pa tong bffs na nag k-kiss ,, oops issue HAHAHAHAHA.
You using my reaction pictures, typing the way i type and using the crying emoticon… i find it really endearing. When you call me endearments, nakakakilig. Remember when I asked you to be my bff? HAHAHA sorry but I need to gatekeep you na! kidding. If it’s not obvious, I really love taking personality quizzes or just any quiz in general. It’s so fun to see what the results is kasi! I love doodling and drawing random shit din, it’s fun lalo na when i send it to you. I still have a lot of doodles na hindi pa na s-send :D btw, thank you sa mga song recos!
I noticed na you’ve been very maharot and makulit ah AHHAHA. I think this was the most maharot and makulit you’ve been since we started talking. from the mummy jokes, “pero tayo may connection”, “parang baby ko”, and god— ang dami pa HAHAHA. I really love it talaga when you’re being malambing and cute sa akin :( idk i find you really wholesome n adorable since hindi ka naman ganon HAHAHA (oo na ang cringey bkt ba) it’s like a rare moment for me eh /pos.