Sometimes it becomes hard to believe that a person which was right in front of you isn't because he's all ashes now. Yes, believing that now dead once used to exist is so delusional to a point nothing feels believable.

Finding ways to swim back to those days becomes impossible. And to be honest, this isn't something to cry upon for whole life or pity oneself. It's to relive those moments again and again by tearing off pages of those memories, gluing them back together and as you press each torn piece with other, the cracks and crevices fill.

The person can't still come in front of the eyes, but we feel the energy. The power. It's in accepting the death. It's in giving in. It's to lose a loved one and to practice living with fragmental feelings.

The most fearful thing to experience for a man sometimes is rejection. The way people face this one emotion is so diverse. And most of the time, this word is thrown into a negative limelight.

I don't understand why would people convince one another to love them. Like, why? Love is not an easy emotion and not at all necessary that if one feels it, the other one has to. Sometimes love is in letting go. But the problem is, people don't consider this whole 'letting go' concept under the topic love-

Movies, one huge obstacle and the reason to respawn our thoughts in a twisted direction. There's alot of things going way beyond wrong in movies. For example, the man going to such lengths to just pursue his love interest. This is shameful to watch. And the female lead that was never interested in the man to begin with, suddenly falls for him head over heels.

This stupid process has filled people with outrageousness and the thinking to dodge rejection in order to face success. It's very important to change the plots. To ACCEPT rejections. To let go. And to sometimes change our ways. Most importantly, to love and accept our own selves first.

Sure, rejection is bitter, but it may lead to undiscovered roads sometimes. It's the best way to recover, relearn and come back stronger. It's the reason to love ourselves more instead of falling in the pit of denial and hating ourselves.
Also, it's impossible to convince everyone to love you. So just love yourself ;)