Hey there! Thanks for taking time out of your day to read about my mighty motivator!! (This just so happens to be the story of the lowest point of my life — and how things are finally turning around).
Since this isn’t my Instagram (@caitlintelles, shameless self promo) I’ll go ahead and just spit it out. I struggle with my mental health, a lot. I have post traumatic stress disorder from being sexually assaulted twice as a teenager, and alongside that you’ll find severe depression, clinical anxiety, and newly re-developed obsessive compulsive disorder. Nearly two years ago, I overdosed during a suicide attempt. My heart stopped, and how it started again is 1,000% a miracle by the grace of God. It took me a long time to recover. I am still working to mend some of my family and friend relationships as this deeply affected so many people besides me. Recently, I got to that point again. The point where the pain I was feeling was so powerful that I could not see any hope- I could not see any way through the darkness. The point where it seemed more logical and beneficial for everyone, including myself and the people around me, to just stop existing than to continue existing as such a f*ck up. I felt like a burden, like a disgrace, and most of all, purposeless. I sat with this feeling and these thoughts for two months. Recently, I reached out to a friend about Monat and took a leap of faith to try something different because what I was currently doing wasn’t cutting it. Since starting Monat, I’ve gained confidence back, I’ve gotten my sense of who I am back, I’ve acquired the courage to start my YouTube channel- something I’ve wanted to do for years but never had the courage to. Monat challenged me to put myself out there, and now I can’t stop. I am going to make it to the top because I am my business! Nobody is going to work harder for me than me, and I am so excited to go on this transformation of hair, skin, and health. Would you like to join me?