Dear Claire

What is it that fuels each and every one of us in this world? For me, it is Dear Claire. I have found such a sense of fulfillment in my own life now. I now enjoy writing about my passions, what interests me, what interests other people, what are the things that I should and not be doing and sharing it with the world. Dear Claire has added such value to my life, and I love having the opportunity to share my passions and thoughts with my loyal readers. Dear Claire, is a unique blog here for you to explore. I'm not fond in expressing my thoughts through words but it's something I'd like to change over the years. With each passing day, I want to express myself through this blog, I may not be often posting here because to be really honest I'm not good in putting the right words in a sentence but I'll always try to, I hope you'll enjoy reading them, xoxo claire.

thoughts of an overthinker

To Krystoff: Happy Birthday

As I currently write this blog for you, I don't know what to expect out from this post nor the things that I might say in between, but one thing I know is that I am always thankful for having you by my side. I am always grateful to have someone like you, a person who is not only my boyfriend but also my friend, my critique, my motivator, my strength and, the greatest support system I could ever have. On your special day, I want to wish you good health and strength. I know that at some point in your life you have doubted yourself and questioned yourself on things that have happened to you but, despite the challenges, you stood up and faced them and let people think they were wrong when they underestimated you. Remember that I am always proud of you for striving to become the best person you are right now. As you are now a third officer, I want to remind you sir to always keep safe not just for me but also for your family, your relatives, and also your friends. I love you always in all ways mon jaune. Can't wait to finally see you soon my love! Happy 24th birthday! I hope this cheers you up from being sick at sea ehe mwaft

To Krystoff

Who would have thought internet love would work for us? I don't know if you'll ever bump into this but yes, this is for you Krystoff. I don't know where to start, my thoughts are just scrambled because there is soo many things that I wanted to say to you. Okay, Let's look back to where we first started, Tinder. Lol, I never thought tinder was still a thing or I guess people were just bored during the lockdown - I just downloaded the app, swipe right and left and I never thought I was conversing with you already and now that I'm writing this I can't help to feel my cheeks blushing because I remembered that I was the one who thought of our endearment (talk about the courage I had back then, lol). I was not looking for something nor hoping that I'd be really meeting you or going out with you, but I guess the tables have now turned the other way around. Lol, okay I hope you won't be able to find this because I expected that you were tall like maybe 5'8 or something hehe but that doesn't matter now. I'm not really into meeting people I've met online but surprisingly without hesitation I was encouraged to meet you with your friends earlier than we talked. A month has passed and we have been like cat and dog in the circle of friends until the time we had our first date and that was something I would always treasure. It was not simple (you know why) but It was memorable and I realized that you're a very mysterious person and someone I look for in a person - a person who has ambitions and has fear of what the future might brings. While you were talking about your passion, plans, and fears I was amazed at how wide your thoughts are and that I wanted to know more. Yes, I have turned you down at some point in that stage because I fret that I would also lose your set of friends, that if ever we would become lovers that turn to friends, I might also lose them. But then I realize something. I'm not getting any younger so might as well take the risk to where our journey might lead us. Our story isn't all about sunny days, there were days when it's also gloomy and I thank you for still being there whenever I need you Thank you love for being extra patient with me despite the attitude that I have, thank you because you always got my back no matter what. I might be stubborn at times, but thank you for reminding me that there will always be a rainbow after every storm. God knows how I prayed for a person like you, a person that I can just hang around like a friend and also a person who can also be my home. I know it's too early to say things like this, but I just feel soo lucky to be with you. I don't know where this journey would lead us, but I always know that I will always be right here supporting and rooting for your success and the decisions you do in life because I don't want you to feel the pain that your yesterday has brought you. I love you always, in all ways mon jaune.


Relationship and family break ups, people leaving, illnesses that eats you alive, hospitalized for a month or two, silently battling anxieties and depression day and night, wondering thoughts on how my future would look like after this pandemic, questioning your worth and realizing how inhuman this world could be. These are the thoughts that had me keeping sane - insane during this pandemic. 2020 is something, and she's not joking bout it. It had opened our eyes and ears on how incapable we as a human are in handling situations like this even though if we are well insured, prepared and even if we have the most advance technologies that man kind would ever make. The past 7 months had thought us that there is more to than just living and surviving everyday and it is keeping our mental health a priority. Back then we can't imagine living everyday without seeing the people that makes us happy, little did we know that it only takes one virus to do those things that we just imagine before. The past 7 months had been a very pain in the ass but that pain in the ass had thought us a lot of things and had made us realize the importance of living and the value of life that we already have. We may question our way of living, but not our life. A lot of dreams and opportunities were put on hold because of the things that are currently happening now. But I hope you'll always keep remembering that things will always get better, it may take time but always trust His ways.

xoxo, claire✨