For Deanne—

Hello? Yes, I understand that having to read about me again makes you sick, I know that even knowing that you are coming in contact with me isn't something you are keen on. But I am here because I wanted to apologize again because, even though I've already left, all thoughts of you, guilt, and feelings of regret come up every day. So I thought I'd apologize once more from the bottom of my heart. I'm sorry. I understand how much you despise everything I've done because I detest myself for never learning from my mistakes and always regretting it in the end. When I'm angry, I'm the type of person who easily erupts. That irritates me greatly.

Speaking of regrets, if I had a "time stone," I would travel back in time to the happy moment when you told me about your childhood, complete with a raincoat, that boots- picture of Dora. I want you to be able to start over where you haven't felt the tiredness of life, made sad by the people around you. I want to see you happy, and I'd like to meet two dogs named Scooby and Lucky there while you're having fun playing. I'm sure they'll make you happier than meeting new people who aren't always happy. But, if only I had that power—all I could do was sketch this subtle moment, as you can see now. Yes, I feel compelled to go to great lengths to ensure your happiness. One thing is sure: I sincerely hope I am the last person to make you sad and disappointed. I hope you meet a good person after this, someone who always tries to make you happy.

Deanne, that's the name on your Spotify right now, so I used it. I only know that because I no longer RP, and all I can see is your Spotify account, where I discovered a new thesis playlist. I'm not sure how you're doing and I know nothing really, but if you're still struggling with the thesis, I hope everything will be made more manageable, and I believe you'll be able to get through it because I know—everyone knows that you're smart, you're amazing, and you always win every competition. Don't you remember it? So I'm hoping you can regain your confidence once again and get back to work on your thesis. If you're finished now, then I'd like to congratulate you and thank you for sticking with it until the end. You thoroughly deserve it. I know how difficult it is for you to manage the organization, let alone when those competitions bring the campus a good name. As a mere listener who knows the story of your hardship, I could feel the weight you're having, but you're always doing an exceptional job at getting through everything. Even though I won't be able to accompany you to the end, know that I am incredibly proud of you. Congratulations once more, and I hope the butterfly on your shoulder is now free to fly. And from now on, the heavens will shower you with smoothness and eternal happiness.

I'm sorry once more if you're still upset, angry, or resentful of me. I sincerely apologize for everything and thank you so much for the priceless lesson and memories.

For the last, Happy Birthday Deanne! May this year brings you a series of never-ending luck and happiness. Take care. Stay blessed.

With love,
Samael C.