hello love, hindi ko masabi ng harapan sayo yung mga gusto kong sabihin, duwag ako, Oo. Gusto kong lumuhod sa harap mo at mag sorry sa lahat ng ginawa ko sayo. Sa mga times na pinaiyak kita, nasaktan, at marami pang iba. Pero thankful ako na natawag kitang akin, kahit sa maikling panahon lang.

advance happy 7th monthsarry, my love!

gusto ko makahanap ka ng mas better sakin, yung it-treat ka, yung hindi ka papaiyakin, iu-update ka, at hindi ka sasaktan. kasi yun yung deserve mo.

gusto ko makita kitang masaya, wag mong hayaang abusuhin ka nila. mhmkay? kumain ka lang nang kumain pero wag mong ipag-mix dahil sasakit talaga yung tummy mo. wag din maging masungit palagi, sayang maman ganda ng araw, lalo na ikaw.

sa dami nating pinag-samahan, ang hirap mo kalimutan, ang sakit, ang sakit sakit. Life was just unfair. But if there is any chance, na ma-meet kita sa next life, I'll give you the better version of me. The best version of me. Wala na sigurong way para mapabalik kita sa feeling ko, pero gusto ko lang sabihin sayo lahat ng thoughts ko, bago ako tuluyang umalis. kaya kinukulit kita this past few days kasi gusto pa kitang makausap, gusto kitang ma-hug sa mga oras na yon.

and pag sad ka, alam ko namang brave ka pero kapag sad ka wag ka mahiyang mag express ng nararamdaman mo sa ibang tao, okay? hindi lahat ij-judge ka, kailangan din natin ng makakapitan sometimes, and I know you'll heal easily, I hope you'll get over me faster as you could. Masaya ako sa mga araw na kausap, kasama pa kita. hindi yon peke, walang peke sa naramdaman ko. dahil lahat ng yon, PURE.

naalala ko pa yung unang pag uusap natin, at hinding hindi ko makakalimutan. Sobrang ganda non, doon kita sinimulang mahalin.

mag-iingat ka mahal ko, palagi. Palagi mong tatandaan na mahal na mahal kita. At kailan man ay hindi naging peke ang naramdaman kong iyon. Naging masaya ako ng sobra, tumitibok ng mabilis ang puso ko sa tuwing nandiyan ka na. Pinapawi mo lahat ng pagod na nakuha ko sa isang buong araw, maraming salamat sa pag-intindi saakin sa abot ng iyong makakaya, mahal na mahal kita hanggang sa muli aking mahal : )

Ethan Balmes

hello my loveeee! greetings to the only pretty boy in my lifeee. HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY MY BABY ! ♡

I don't know where do I start but yeah, 15 is cruel to you, there's a lot of time that you've cried, that you are hurt, you're suffering to those things that you didn't do and a lot more.

I hope 16 will be better or do better for you, I wish you a genuine happiness my love, yung wala ng gabi na iiyak ka nang iiyak dahil sa tingin mo kulang ka, hindi ka enough, hindi ka worth it, and you don't deserve that kind of feelings.

Siguro nasa stage ako ng life na may mga mali akong nagagawa, may mga mali akong desisyon, na pinapangunahan ako ng emosyon ko. kaya kita nasasaktan. alam kong maraming beses na, maraming beses ka nang umiyak dahil sakin. And I know, hindi mo deserve yon, hindi mo ako deserve.

totoo naman yon, nung naghiwalay tayo mag t-two weeks din siguro. kinausap ako ni mom, nag-usap kami like deep talk. She told me that, (kaya ka siguro niya hiniwalayan, kasi that's the best thing that he could do for the both of you. That's the best decision he could make to fix himself, to find him, I guess masakit din yung pinagdaanan niyong dalawa pero huwag kang iiyak ngayon at sasabihing kasalanan mo kaya ka niya iniwan, dahil kasalanan mo talaga, siguro ayaw ka niyang sisihin kasi ayaw niya na magkasumbatan kayo, sa sobrang takot mong mawala yung taong ayaw mong mawala, nakakasakit ka na, nagiging selfish ka na anak, hayaan mo siyang lumaya at magpahinga sandali. He truly deserves it, and kung babalikan ka man ulit ni Jay, do better this time. Don't waste the chance he gave you) that's what she said, I've realized a lot of things after that like a lot.

But I'm glad you came back, I'm so happy that you are here again, with me.

gusto ko lagi kang naka-smile, lagi kang masaya, yung hindi ka na iiyak, that's all I want.

I hope everything heals, and so are you. You deserve everything my love, there is no words in this world describes how much I love you.

You are my end game, and will always be my favorite person. In this world full of lies, you are my sure thing.

Thank you for making me feel loved and letting me feel that I am enough, like I deserve to be loved without reservations.

I'm so proud of you. I'm proud of your efforts. And how you never give up, I'm glad that you found a light in the darkest moments of your life. I'm proud that you're trying everything to get up, and get things done. There is something about you that's so beautiful; that smile you always carry. You inspire me to be the best that I can be.

Thank you for being the person who understood me when no one else did.

Even though we're really far away from each other, you are still close to my heart than anybody else.

I'm grateful for every second I get to spend with you. I love you more than anything in this world!

HAPPY 8TH MONTHSARRY AND 16TH BIRTHDAY MY BABY! ♡