JIZZABELLE SPADE
I genuinely love what I do and can't get enough of it. It's just who I am right now!
As time moves on i learn more about myself, the ones close to me, and even random people i meet throughout my day. Some of the things arent so great and really i wish i didnt know whatever it was, but then i learn something new from someone or myself and i become amazed and genuinely fascinated with the topic. I have to know more about it. Why, when, where, who, the positives, and the negatives. Then i ask myself is it something i want to try, or participate in, or is it just not for me? I end up on the fence alot. Im sure alot of yall can relate to that feeling. You know the excited and curious yet apprehensive feeling that makes ur palms sweaty while giving you a slight smirk on ur face .....i think thats completly "normal". Youre not alone. We all have felt that feeling at some point in our lives. I get it often ...
I said i genuinely love what i do because its 100% true! I get to explore things with different people and its different every time i do something. Were all different and we enjoy things and our partners differently. To me its a ride in a new car each time and thats what i cant get enough of. Maybe one day i will have my fill of the adventures of my sexcapades but for today its me and you and im ready to take that ride.
Let me explain it this way .....when im with someone; for that time were together i dont think about anything else . I have no stressers, i have no worries, i have nothing on my mind good or bad. Its like im floating in the air and for that time i am free and happy and i feel amazing. Thats my drug i guess u can say. I am addicted to the euphoria i get from this.
Some think im wrong for this and thats ok with me. I live my life the way i feel is best for me and my situation and so should everyone else. I dont intend to hurt anyone or be cruel and i would never intentionally cause harm to anyone mentally or physically. And the last thing i want to do is mess up anyones life they're living. You dont ever have to worry about me popping up, or calling randomly, or that kid stuff with blackmailing you. Im trusting you and you can trust me. Youll see that once we meet.
Now all you have to do is make that move and send me a text. Ill walk you though it if needed. Follow my lead until youre comfortable to take over. Well chat for a few and well both relax and not be as nervous before we hop into that new car and take off. I assure you that when we part ways youll be grateful we met.