You’re not alone
Hi guys! I’m Elina. I know that almost everyone has the problem with self-acceptance and that’s why I decided to write this here so you could read it.
Let me tell you my story about an issue with self-acceptance, yes I had this issue and it was really bad. It started when I was younger, few years ago, when people started to look at me how I look and to be honest, it was very unpleasant.
They were judging me by my look, because I was very skinny, and no I didn’t have any problems with eating and this stuff. People were insulting me, making fun of me etc. as you can some of you imagine, it was very difficult for me and so hard, that’s when I started to hate myself. Me having slimy body and it hurt so much. I couldn’t see myself in the mirror, because when I did I was just mad at myself how ugly I am and nobody likes me. I’ve been a joke to most of people from my life, some of my primary school classmates, some of my "friends", and it wasn’t that very easy for me when my family started to talk about me being gaunt. It was really a big problem, because it wasn’t very good for my mental health, I struggled with more shit and I couldn’t find another solution than hurt myself. I was very disappointed about my relatives, but they were right. At least I thought, but after some time I realized that it’s it my fault and I can’t just blame myself to death.
Luckily I got my amazing parents, my mother, because she stood up for me, whenever I needed and I love you mom so fucking much.
My best friend was trying to cheer me up for so many times and to calm me down, because I was really sad and negative about all, she was amazing and she still is, but you know that it never helps, because you just have it in your head, it’s stuck there and the feeling that it will never disappear. My mom was in these days my light to my darkness, she opened my eyes to see that nobody is perfect, but original. Everyone is somehow rare or special.
I want to let you know, that you are not alone in this, there are another solutions than self destructive or bad and negative thoughts. It’s helpful to talk to someone and believe it or not, it doesn’t even matter if it’s your mom or dad, friend, bestie or stranger. It’s okay to speak up, it’s okay to cry and people should understand.
Don’t be afraid to show your true feelings, because we are all human beings after all.
I’m here, your family is here, your friends and acquaintances are here FOR YOU! We are here even you think we are not, just a little conversation and it makes you feel a bit relieved. Trust me on this, if you need to talk I am here for you today, tomorrow, next days and always🤍 don’t be alone and speak up!