HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!

Happy 1st Anniversary to us! I can't think of any special gift so I ended up making a letter. Anyway, this will be short, I don't know what to write. This will be full of my thoughts and words that I can't tell directly, and ofc appreciation letter. I know all of you are aware that I’m having a hard time putting my feelings into words, but I’m trying. First of all, I am so grateful that I met all of you. I don't know what words to use to express my gratitude. We've been through a lot. From the traumatic ocg up until now we're still friends.

I’m so sorry for becoming so aloof. There are days that I still feel so unworthy. The traumas and everything keeps on haunting me. I didn't only hurt myself but the other people as well, domino effect po right? hahaha. That's the consequences of what I did and now I need to face it. There's no use of running away from all of my problems. I will prioritize myself po again. All of you deserve the best version of me. Hindi po pwedeng always madadamay kayo whenever I am having a panic/anxiety attack. I don't want to be dependent sa inyo.

You can see that I am talking to other people in Saloobin or in my timeline pero I rarely talk to all of you. To be honest, I am so shy to talk to you all po kasi super tagal ko nawala but this doesn't justify what I did. That was wrong, what I did was wrong.

Please don't doubt my love po for all of you kasi even if we're not always talking ALL OF YOU ARE STILL MY FRIENDS. I’m sorry for hurting you all, especially Mama Katja. I will make it up to all of you po.

Happy anniversary! I love you all.