I've always loved the concept of theories about the connection we have with other people, and so I've always believed in the invisible string theory. A theory where there's an invisible red thread binding together two people despite the obstacles, time, and distance. As corny as it sounds, I kind of believe that you're my invisible string.

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Dear Dom,

Merry christmas, love ko! Surprise hehe, ito na muna regalo ko sayo. I hope this day is jolly and sana nakuha mo mga gusto mo 🙏 I hope the remaining days of 2023 will be bearable for you. As I write this letter, I have no outline of what I would like to say so baka medyo magulo yung daloy nito at baka may mga hindi ako masabi 🥹 I want to start this letter off with saying thank you for everything. Thank you for loving me, thank you for accepting me for who I am, thank you for spoiling me, thank you for everything bab. I may not say it as often as I want to but I'm genuinely really thankful for you. You've healed a huge part of me, and I hope I did the same to you too. Sa totoo lang, I honestly didn't expect to have anyone this year heck to even have a partner that could stay/remain until christmas 🥹 you're my first in almost everything, and I wish it continues to stay that way (except na lang sa negative parts pls HAHAHA).

I know we've already gone through a lot of bumpy roads, as in ang dami na nating napagdaanan bab— the rough, sad, and painful parts but despite that the love, understanding, and care always prevailed. I'm so thankful because we didn't give up. Alam mo bab, I used to not be a fan of committing because I'm scared, but ever since you came you just showed me how there's really nothing to be afraid of. You showed me that if a person really loves someone, no matter how rough the patches are, if they wanted to they would stay.

I've never been this connected with someone before and that's why I want to thank you for showing me what and how genuine and reciprocated love really is.

Dear Dom,

Happy New Year! I decided to write a short letter for you before the year 2023 ends. First of all, gusto kong magpasalamat sa universe (WOW UNIVERSE) kasi nakilala kita. I don't know what/which part you would play in my other lives but I'm happy we met in this life and I'm grateful to have you in this life as my partner. I don't really know what and how I can repay you for everything you've done, but just so you know— I'm thankful for your existence.

In this letter I'll give you some fun facts that you never knew before ;)

Did you know bab, I never really liked my name before. That's why I've always created silly nicknames for myself and alam mo ba dahil don, mas kilala ako ng mga internet friends ko as "rika" or "eri" 😁 but for some reason, you really made me love my name. Hindi ko alam kung paano, hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero isang araw mas minahal ko pangalan ko dahil sayo.

Alam mo ba? I've never felt obligated in this relationship. That's literally one thing that I'm avoiding in a relationship because I know for sure that I'll get turned off and tired QUICKLY ! But because of you, I never felt that obligation because we never really require each other to do anything and I'm thankful for that (If that makes sense!). Thanks for making me feel comfortable, heard, and free.

Remember when I told you that I feel unlucky? Did you know that whenever I talk with you or whenever I'm with you, you always make me feel the luckiest and I'm beyond grateful for that.

Did you know? When I'm sad or when I rant about something shitty or annoying that I've experienced, I can always see your effort with comforting me which LITERALLY makes me smile and happy because I know you have a hard time finding the exact words to comfort me pero I can see that you're always trying your best to give me the words and support that I need.

Thank you Bab, for making my 2023 more bearable. I hope you stay forever, I love you tenderly and genuinely. Happy New Year, Bab! Let's stay together for a long long time please? 🥹

Cheers to more new years! I hope I get a new year's kiss soon :D

Hi bab, welcome to a series of me writing about the things I'm thankful for and what I love about you :3 !! this might happen weekly (hopefully) but on random days!

I would like to start this off by saying that I'm so proud of you for everything you've accomplished. I can see you trying your best every single day, and I swear your efforts are not going to waste. I love you, good luck sa balik f2f! miss na kita :(

To start off the so-called series: Here are 8 things that I'm thankful for.

1. Thank you for always feeding me my favorite foods or even the food that i haven't tried/tasted yet.
2. Thank you for being patient with me while you wait for me outside the gate (school or sa bahay).
3. Thank you for bringing me gifts that i don't even deserve.
4. Thank you for always making sure that i'm okay.
5. Thank you for remembering the small details about me.
6. Thank you for always reminding me to sleep, eat, or drink water.
7. Thank you for staying up with me while i do my requirements
8. Thank you for trusting me and for loving me for who i am.

I love you.

Dear Bab,

Pasensya ka na at hindi kita napaghandaan ng kahit na good luck treats man lang 🥹 Ito muna pambawi ko sa'yo !! I just wanted to say good luck tomorrow, I hope you won't pressure yourself too much and just enjoy the game! I know you'll do an incredible job baby, I wish I could there to cheer you on and as cliché as it sounds, to also wipe your pawis and give you drinks and snacks! 🙁 but I'll leave that job muna to your friends! Tell them (specifically to your friends na maglalaro rin) I said good luck!

Btw, thanks for letting me hug you kanina. I really needed it! Especially now, kailangan ko pa rin ng yakap mo, pero okay lang din kasi kapit na kapit yung amoy ng pabango mo sa'kin. Alam mo naman na tuwing naamoy ko yun, kumakalma ako hehe.

Anyway, Wala ka pa mismo sa laro pero alam mo naman na sobrang proud ako sa'yo, sobra pa sa sobra bab! I love you, good luck tomorrow okay! I'll make sure you get your treat soon because you deserve it!!! Manalo, matalo, I'm proud of you oki! I love you so much.

My Dearest Bab,

Hi! This is just a quick letter for you. I know you've had a tiring but very productive day today and I'm super proud of you for doing so many things. Kahit na ang dami mong ginawa simula kaninang umaga, nakuha mo pang daanan ako para lang mabigyan ako ng isang mahigpit na yakap at halik. Bab, I see your efforts every single day and I see how productive, driven, and motivated you are. If I could, I would give you a thousand kisses and hugs for being able to do that. I really admire you. I hope you rest well today! You really deserve it my big baby <3 I love you so much and I'm very proud of you.

Hi bab! Tomorrow's our last day of being able to communicate with each other 🥹 I hope everything goes well tomorrow! I pray for your travel to be safe and sound!

Bab, you know when you asked me to come to your competition I felt very happy not because I was gonna watch you; but because you're going to play again after being on hiatus for so long!!! I felt how upset you were nung sinabi mo sa'kin na hindi na matutuloy but thank the universe for turning things around and allowing you to play again 😙

I watched how you played, and grabe talaga I had heart eyes habang naglalaro ka!!! kasi look at how good my baby is 🙁 you're so talented bubba and I'm super duper proud of you. Wala kang training no'n but you still killed it!!! napakagaling 🥹 I'm sorry again because I wasn't able to watch your last game, I promise I won't miss a thing when I watch you again! and I promise I'll get tons of pictures and videos of you para ma-rewatch ko rin kung gaano ka kagaling hehe 🤞 alam mo ba kanina pinaguusapan ka ulit nila lola? wala, they're just asking me how your game went and basta they were also very in awe of you !!

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed kahapon 😆 HAHAHAHAHAHAAH lamonayan !! Though I don't really like labeling any sexual acts as a reward but count that as a well deserved one 😝 cravings satisfied din naman sa'kin luv et HAHAHAHAHAHA but drink pineapple juice next time okey, 🙄🫵

Retreat mo na bukas, craulo hindi ko alam kung paano ako mabubuhay, makakakain, makakainom, makakahinga nang hindi ka nag r-reply sa'kin CHAR oa. pero seryoso, hindi ko alam kung paano at ano mangyayari sa'kin the following days but I'm excited for you! I know you've been looking forward to doing this retreat thing and I'm happy you find it exciting to go and try new things bebe. I hope during those days is masaya ka and marami kang matutunan, of course I'd appreciate it if you'd update or jot down even highlights of what happened that day ^^ please eat lots and make sure to have fun! I'm sorry I wasn't able to prepare anything at all for you :(( kahit a snack box man lang or physical letter T____T babawi ako sa'yo once we see each other again!! I'll miss you a lot and I love you so much bab.

Remember bab, even if I'm far from you, we still live and see the same stars and sky. I love you dearly and nothing's gonna change that.

"gusto ko ng pag-ibig na parang ambon" pamilyar ka ba sa tulang 'yon?

“Gusto ko ng pag-ibig na parang ambon na walang katapusan. Bumubuhos pero hindi nanglulunod. Malumanay pero nararamdaman. Humahalik sa bumbunan at sa bawat uhaw na kanto ng pagkatao. Gusto ko ng ambon, hindi nagmamadali, hindi naninira, hindi nananakot, hindi naninigaw. Pero patuloy na nagbibigay. Gusto ko ng ambon. Tama lang ang bagsak. Hindi masakit ang pagkahulog ng mga patak. Hindi rin masakit para sa mapapatakan. Ang klase ng panahong lagi kong pipiliing masilungan, panoorin, pagnilay-nilayan, araw-araw, hindi aayaw.”

Thank you for showing me this kind of love. A gentle love that I never knew that I would experience.

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Hi bab, how are you? It took me a month to create this letter, kasi I knew I needed the time to collect and treasure every piece of information I absorb. Actually, even if it took me a long time to create this, I still don't know how to start this. I hope this doesn't turn out bad kasi I just know for sure na baka medyo magulo ang daloy nito T___T

Maybe I'll start this letter off with alam mo ba, sa simula ng paguusap at pagkilala natin sa isa't isa, akala ko nung una hindi magtatagal 'to. But surprisingly, here we are, celebrating the 1st year of us talking to each other— soon, we'll be celebrating the 1st month of us being official. It's been a wild ride ever since nakilala kita, we had so many bumpy roads, we fought, and we loved.

Bab, I have so many things to be thankful for the months we've been together; hindi mo alam kung gaano mo ako natulungan ever since we started talking. In most cases you're helping me get out of my comfort zone, to become better, na maging gentle, to be more understanding, na maging mas malibog ?? HAHAHAHA you've made me more appreciative of love, and that's why my favorite thing to say now is "i love you" and it's so fulfilling when I finally said that to you— and because of that, I can't help but say it again and again whenever I have the chance to do so. Loving you makes me genuinely happy.

You know bab, I'm really proud of you and I see how hardworking, talented, and caring you are. Being able to see you up close and watch you play fencing was so amazing, you were so cool bab. Seeing you work so hard just to get back on track is amazing, and seeing you take care of your siblings while still being able to do your hobbys and anything school related is amazing. Your ability to balance everything and properly manage your time even if it sometimes drain you is amazing bab, I'm really proud of you and I will never get tired of saying that.

Anyway, I mentioned that I have so many things to be thankful for, right? I'm starting it off with thank you for giving me the best hugs, thank you for always opening the door for me, thank you for always making me go first on the escalator, thank you for always waiting for me, thank you sa pagsundo sa'kin, thank you sa pagiging available mo tuwing kailangan ko ng kasama, thank you sa pagsubo sa'kin ng mga pagkain, thank you sa walang sawa na pag remind sa'kin na kumain, thank you for always spoiling me even if I didn't ask, thank you sa pagbili ng mga paborito kong pagkain at inumin na hindi nawawalan ng handwritten na goodluck message, thank you sa paghatid kahit na ang lapit lang na pinuntahan mo sainyo at malayo uuwian ko, thank you sa pakikinig sa'kin kahit na nagtatampo ako tuwing uuwi ka na kasi ayaw mong mag angkas, thank you for healing a part of me that you didn't even break, thank you for trying your best to be the best partner I could ever ask for, thank you for making me love my body, thank you for brushing my hair and tying it, thank you sa pagkapa ng tinapay para makain ko yung maraming laman, thank you sa mga chicken skin na binibigay mo, thank you for managing not to break my walls that I've built, instead, you managed to climb it and build it further with me, thank you for loving me wholeheartedly, and thank you for always having the willingness to have a piece of what I grieve and cry for.

Bab, sinabi mo sa'kin noon na you're sorry kasi hindi ka magaling sa pag put ng thoughts mo into words. You told me na if you were good at it, masasabi mo sa'kin kung how much mo talaga ako ina-adore, how much you care for me, and kung gaano ka kahanda na i-risk sa'kin ang lahat. I want to tell you na hindi mo naman kailangan maging magaling para masabi sa'kin kung ano ba nasa puso mo, kasi nagagawa mo naman siyang ipakita sa'kin bab and that's why I appreciate you so much for trying to make bawi through your actions. To be frank, actions actually speak louder than words.

I've mentioned it before na every moment that I spend with you is something that becomes my favorite, and I'm so excited to spend more time with you so I could fill my mind and heart with these moments forever. I want to say na bab, I know I'm not always the best partner but I will try to be somone who you could rely on 100%!! kasi if I can't do that, then malulungkot ako sobra HAHAHAHA anyway, I just want to say sorry if I ever gave you a hard time or if I was just hurting you instead of being a form of comfort. I also just want to add that you made me realize a lot of things and whether it's good or bad, I'm always thankful because you made me open my eyes to those stuff (If that makes sense)

Hay, feel ko nawawala wala na ako T___T I'm so sorry na agad if all over the place na tong sinulat ko or bigla na lang nag c-change yung flow but ayun! alam mo ba, I never expected to have my firsts with you, like grabe?! who would've thought na hindi na ako matatakot sumubo ng tite? HAHAHAHAHAHA but for real, I know we both still have a long way to go especially when it comes to discovering each other's personality, likes and dislikes! it won't stop here hehehe speaking of discoveries, grabe I never knew you could sing like that talaga :( you have a really nice voice bab!! you should sing to me often hehe T___T Oh there's also something that I noticed!!! ever since we downloaded sumone, napapansin ko na our answers are almost the same and it's so cute :(( na f-feed yung soulmate delusions ko sa'yo hdhdhehehd

Anyway, feel ko talaga super gulo na nito but whatever! At least it's more open and wholehearted pag ganito heheheheh !! Bab, I hope you won't get tired of my letters because I'll be your lover, kaaway, solace, best friend, and someone who you could celebrate every month and the day of 11th and 15th with. I love you bab, happy 1st! 😚 Mahal kita palagi’t lagi, dom.

HELLO BAAAAAAB!
It's been a while since i've made one of these hehe, it's nice to finally be able to write something again after so long. Anyway, I wanted to give you a short letter because I know you've been busy with your personal life and school, you might've been feeling more stressed out or overwhelmed with the tasks you have to deal with 🥲 I hope that this could lift your spirits up a little.

Bab, I hope you know that you're good and you're kind. It's okay to feel angry, it's okay to feel upset. I'm proud of you for everything that you do !! I'm not really in the same position as you to say this but I just know it's not easy to take care of the young ones while also thinking of your pendings 🥹 I love you, just take your time kasi i will always wait for you!!! Mahal na mahal kita bab, lagi't lagi. I'll always be proudly cheering and waiting for you, kaya don't rush okay? Meron kang ako na pwedeng pwede mong uwian lagi pagkatapos ng nakakapagod na araw.

Rest well today, okay? Deserve mo 'yun. 🩷

Dear lover 🫀

writing down a short message for you because i wasn't able to prepare anything beforehand !!

bab, i want to say thank you for being patient with me these past few days 🥹 i know we've been occupied with a lot of things, lalo na ikaw !! last time you said you're sorry for not being able to help me or do anything to help me, i want to let you know that it's okay because you're helping me a lot by being there for me, by talking to me everyday.

anyway, speaking of your tryout !! my godddd babi i'm super duper proud of you !!!!!! alam kong wala pa namang nangyayari like this is just the starting point of your journey but i'm just so so so proud of you for being able to do this 🥹 a huge step already !!! i manifest for your success in this path so much bab and i just know that you'll do great and you'll definitely rock :3 i wish you good luck 🤞

i love you dom! rest up and get yourself ready !! i will be cheering for you 🩷

Dear lover,

Happy happy happyyyyy 18th birthday, my love 🥹 holy shit you're 18 na !! everything will still feel the same but being 18 gives you a lot of go passes to do whatever you want but like what I always say, even if we're allowed to do those things na, we still need to be responsible.

Honestly I have no idea on how to even start this letter !! maybe I'll go over what happened kanina HAHAHAHA alam mo ba I was rushing home and I was really panicking kasi walang wrapper yung flowers na ginawa ko (as someone na hindi nakabili ng gano'n kaya di ko nagawa) HAHAHAHA but I'm so so glad that the flowers still looked nice kahit na wala siyang pa-bouquet effect. All the tusok from the wires and paso from the glue gun was worth it. I really tried my best to make it look nice so paki-excuse na lang nung mga imperfections niya HAHAHAHA. Kanina while I was on my way sa fishermall, I felt so much like an adult (adult?!) but it was a bigggg achievement for me to even go out alone and buy gifts and even a cake for someone 🥹 speaking of cake, sana nakakain ka !!!

Anyway, there are so many things I'm thankful for ! I really wanna go over the fact that you've made me so comfortable with being able to do things alone and honestly i'm really thankful because you're always helping me get out of my comfort zone (in terms of new experiences, food, etc...). I'm thankful because you make me feel loved, and cared for. Basta, sobrang thankful ko sa'yo bab, sobra pa sa sobra !!!!

I'm at the point of my life where I really really want us to last, ikaw lang gusto kong makasama maglakad sa intramuros at frisco kahit na napaka init, ikaw lang gusto kong makasamang kumain ng tusok-tusok, ikaw lang gusto kong makasama pag manonood ng cine, ikaw lang gusto kong makasama sa buong buhay ko.

I really love you, bab 🥹 I'm so glad that I still exist to celebrate this special day with you. Mahal na mahal kita and I really wish this day and whole week would treat you well 🫶 I pray and manifest for good days ahead :)

I won't be there to celebrate your day physically but just so you know, I'm celebrating with you in spirit!!! I love you bab ko, please enjoy your day 🥹🫶 HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAINNNN mwa mwa

Dear Dom,

By the time you read this, you're probably still preparing or already at the event 🥹Unfortunately, hindi ako makakapunta dahil sa work immersion ko 🥲 But anyway, you're finally graduating! Congratulations bab, I'm super proud of you 🩷 I know it feels bittersweet, so I hope you cherish everything. I'm so glad to witness this milestone of yours, I know we're still far from what we want to achieve but ika nga, progress is progress. I believe in you so much, bab! I know there's a bright future ahead of you and I just know that you'll do really really great. I hope to see more of your achievements 🎀🩷 I love you, congratulations! Happy graduation 🎓🎉

hi, i don't think you'll remember that this site exists but it's okay at least i have a way to send something to you. i promised myself that this would be the last time i'd write here. i said sa breakup natin na i have so many things to be thankful for, pero di ko na iisa-isahin. but, i just really want to share how much impact you left in my life and how much those little moments we had saved me in some way and made me feel the genuine love you have towards me.

dom, i just really want to say thank you for everything. you helped me become better, to grasp the concept of love more, and to get out of my comfort zone. thank you for telling me na hindi dapat ako palaging takot— i've been holding onto those words since then. thank you for making me feel the urge to stay alive because i still have someone as important as you, waiting for me to come back from the darkest depths of my mind. thank you kasi kahit alam mong inaanxious ako na tao, you still push me towards a path where i could be independent too. thank you for always letting me try new foods kahit na napaka arte kong tao. thank you kasi you're always making sure na i eat well and have rewards before or after an important scheduled event. thank you for always holding my hand. thank you for hugging me always. thank you for every single thing that you've done to make me happier.

i'll miss you so much. i'll miss going out of the house to eat McDonald's or tusok tusok with you. i'll miss the spontaneous meet ups outside after school. i'll miss having you over at my house and doing everything and anything. i'll miss you so bad

i realized something while writing this, i remember na mention ko na siya sa letter na sinend ko through messenger, but it sucks na i have to be the one where you got to initiate a breakup. it hurts, sobra pa sa sobra. kasi i didn't want to be the first, if i was, then i'd like to be selfish and be your last. but that's not very like my character 😅 i mean it when i say that i won't be getting over you soon, it make take a while but that's fine !! i just wish when the time comes, when you decide to open your heart again— you'd think of coming back to me 🥹 but again that's just a really selfish request of mine. whether you choose to come back home to me or not, i'll be wishing you the best.

alam mo, it's November 10 ngayon, and as i'm writing this nasa competition ka ngayon. i saw na you were able to do well doon sa tableau. congrats! alam ko the last few games that you had, it was always an "almost". i'm happy that you were able to surpass that and move forward. nakaka-proud ka talaga. congrats so much dom, you did well! 7th place is such a big deal!

we started things with me wishing you good luck, and it ended the same. i hope your passion continues to grow and i hope you continue to love yourself and everything that you're passionate about

anyway, if you didn't see this beforehand then congratulations pero pag you saw it na, that's okay rin hehe i planned on sending this to you before the year ends kaya i'm already putting a lot here haha (or maybe never ko na siya ipapaalam sayo)

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nov 12 - add lang

birthday ko na, it kind of sucks kasi i was somehow hopeful that you'd greet me (but then i realized na you already did) hehe i miss you, but ayoko masyadong mag-ingay sa accounts ko kasi sa totoo lang ayaw ko na i-sb mo pa ako further lol (napaka oa at selfish ng tao na to sorry na) you won't be hearing from me na again, unless you want to. just so you know, i'm still gonna wait— and i'll stop when you give me a sign to stop being hopeful. but for now, i'll be living the last following days ^^ i miss you, i hope you're eating well and doing well