This is me 💕

My mental health! 💗

💎This is me! 💎

Sometimes I feel like my life is built over insecurities.😓 and I bet I am not the only one.

I find myself worrying, stressing and freaking out about the smaller things. Almost constantly which ruins my day to day journey.

Over years, I got much better I started to love my self. I still think that’s part of my nature, though. Growing up I’ve always been the different one. The chubbier. The most introverted. The less sociable. The weirder one. The one who was bullied and called and who’s school life was made hell! 😩

This hasn’t helped much building my confidence, but I haven’t got many regrets. This is my personality and growing up I’ve learned how to live with it. How to leverage every weakness and turn it in my favour.
Being insecure most of the time has been a crucial step towards becoming who I am. That’s why I rather embrace it than fight it.
Because I know I am perfect in my own way! 🥲

But It’s not always easy!
But this is me! ❤️

People say to me what’s up with you life isn’t that bad, get over yourself, you don’t know what Iv been through, so why are you the way you are! You was fine YESTERDAY!🤷🏻‍♀️

Now then ‘you was fine yesterday’ this is said a fucking lot! And you know what have you stopped and actually thought to your self, tbh was you? 😱

Did you notice I kept my self to my self?
Did you notice I wasn’t singing or dancing?
Did you realise that I didn’t stop moving! Or kept fiddling with everything I physically could?

This is the issue with today’s society! They think just because you have a smile on your face and you talk to people means that everything is ok! 😟 when DEEP DOWN it really isn’t!

Did you know from a really early age I was called fat, ugly, was told to loose weight, I would never be pretty and I would never be PERFECT! I was hit, kicked and shouted at! Iv been told to kill my self, been told im not good enough and over all just made to feel SHIT!! 😭I was made to feel that low about my self that in fact I starved my self for such a long time! I was monited while I was eating just so I would eat! Because the day my body gave up came along!

Iv always been the chirpy one, Iv always put everyone first! But it’s never really got me anywhere!

Anxiety and Depression sucks! But im a worrier!

Through out my life iv struggled with so much! Reading, writing, being in big groups, talking out loud because i was always scared I would be laughed at! CRAZY RIGHT?

I fact all my life iv been told to not say how i feel! Iv hid away the pain! Councilling and medication like who speaks about that?

‘Im sorry im just nipping to the loo’ when really all i need to say is i cant breath, im struggling, i need help...

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5

I repeat this on a daily! To hold in the tears which are trying to roll down my cheek, because i dont want to be cause a hypocondriact, drama queen, attention seeker.

But yano what FUCK YOU!!

Im 20 years old and i suffer with Anxiety and Depression! I have panic attacks and i go 3-4 nights without sleep! I take 150mg of sertriline! And I sleep more than others sometimes..
But THIS IS ME!!

I am who I am because what i have been through! I am who I am because no matter what....

I AM WORTHY
I AM BEAUTIFUL
I AM PRETTY
I AM PERFECT

MENTAL HEALTH and INSECURITIES are REAL!
So next time you see a post or see someone just ask them if they are okay! Have a chat with them! Over the last year has been a life changer for all!

A year ago i moved out from my mamas! A year ago i was told i couldnt see my friends/family or anyone for that matter! Life has been hard but i wouldnt of been able to do it without the people around me TODAY! 💖

Always remember YOU are PERFECT in every possible way!! I LOVE YOU! For WHO YOU ARE!

I AM A MENTAL HEALTH WORRIER AND THIS IS MY SAFE SPACE AND THIS IS ME!
IM CURVY,I HAVE SCARS AND MY OWN INSECURITIES BUT I AM PERFECT!💗

Thank you to everyone on the BB team including Emily Louise Hufton, Charlotte McConnell and sophie Hughes Our CEO without you I wouldn’t have the confidence to show the world who I really am! 💖

I would also like to thank the ladies on my Team at The Chocoholics @ kekolo sweet treats 🍫🍭 you have all been incredible 2 months in a row we have hit 8* BABYYYYY 💖

And a Hugeeee Thank you to all my Friends and Family who have all been there for me and patient 💎 I LOVE YOU ALL 💗

HATERS ARE GOING TO HATE! BUT TELL THEM TO FUCK OFF! 😜💖

ALWAYS REMEMBER TO BE WHO YOU WANT TO BE! 💖

Please don’t hesitate to share! Let’s make other people aware it’s OKAY! TO NOT BE OKAY! And it’s Okay to share your story! 💖

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