Like I have previously mentioned, my parents sheltered me as a child which made me very shy and reclusive. Due to my quiet personality, I involuntarily became everyone’s doormat. I was incapable of standing up for myself whether I was being wrongly accused, bullied or being condescended by others. I did not know how to defend myself and I was very fragile. People were able to easy manipulate me because I was afraid of them and they were aware that I yearned to fit in. I have done bizarre things to fit in with others despite knowing wrong from right.
I was continuously emotionally, mentally and verbally abused by those around me, but my naivety convinced me that it was just tough love. I was a target for others because I did not have the courage to defend myself. I was unaware of how to protect myself and eventually, this lead to a lot of consequences.
Eventually, I decided to build up the courage to defend myself and my image. I was fed up with being everyone’s doormat. I was tired of excusing people’s harsh behaviour toward me and placing the blame on myself. Presently, I am a strong willed person who does not allow myself to be the target of others’ misery to be taken out on me. I am no longer a victim of abuse and bullying because I made the decision to become a withstanding individual.