Our Personal Journal

Our safe place to tell each other everything..

Hey baby, I made this to be able to write to you daily about my day, or sudden thoughts I get that I can't tell you at the moment because you're busy or asleep. Spamming our messages seems unfair, so I hope that this place is safe for you and me ~

hey baby !

I really hope you like this, I wanted to make such a special place for us, just us of course..I hope you like it ~ 🤍

hey my baby bunny ! - december 19

official note one

after you went to bed, I decided to enjoy myself a long nap, it was the best nap ever. then I had coffee when I woke up, honestly it was really yummy too! then I was writing in my notes to be able to have something for you when you got back..but I realized that would be pointless cause it wouldn't be as pretty..so I looked for something, and app that I could share to you and tell you about my day. I found this one! it works so so so so so so easy!! so, I hope you like the way this works cause honestly, I feel like it'll be so lovely for us to have a safe space to talk about anything..I love you so much, that I wanna do things to keep our bond blooming more and more. I wanna strength our bond and love, cause I love you so much my ace, so much, I'd do anything just to make you happy..now! imma go snuggle you cause you're awake hehe mwah ~ 🤍 I love you baby bunny !! 🤍🤍🤍🤍

drawing teddy bears - december 19

don't give up baby !

baby drawing teddy bears isn't too hard! if I have to, I'll do a step by step just for you!

you are poetry in my mind - december 19

sir, you've been making me feel...

loved in all shapes
loved in all colors
loved in all tones
the way our love has no true shape
the way our love has no true color
the way out love has no true tone
we are irregular, and that's what makes our love
the most unique
the most amazing
and the most beautiful thing I've lived all my life

my strong lover - december 19

you are...

strong like the earth
brave like the water
wild like the wind
fierce like fire

I admire what I have
what I hold
what I love

you are in small words
my greatest muse

sunflower painting - december 20

I just love sunflowers and play guitar...

I honestly wanna play the guitar for you
I wanna sing to you the way you make me feel
I wanna paint on your skin
Kiss you and leave art with my lips

note two - december 20

so my day went a little like this...

so, when I woke up I obviously greeted you, brushed my teeth and had breakfast before cuddling you alot and making sure you had loads of kisses to be able to sleep. after that, I had coffee with a piece of sweet bread and decided I would draw then I started painting instead, and yes that piece took me hours because I was being very careful. I was very patient while doing it, and I honestly feel like it takes off my mind from things that stress me out too much sometimes, but I mean, it's good to be able to just relax other days and do nothing. I just thought it would be good if I did something nice for you to see my painting skills you know?

anyways, now, I'm freshly clean, after..ahem, certain things. we should definitely have that...convo, later. but anyways, if I go to sleep before I can give you kisses, I'm sorry baby. :( I love you so much though, and I'll leave you many kisses here! mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah!!!!

for my baby bunny - december 21

hey baby...

I don't wanna assume, but it's clear that you're either busy or my baby is having a bad day. so, I hope you get to see this and you know that I love you so much, and I hope that when you wake up, your day is better.

Want me to give you kisses and cuddles, I'll make sure to give them to you. I hope you enjoy my forehead kisses and make sure you love each little kiss I give you baby, and I hope you rest well when I see you because I want my baby to know that I'll always be here whenever my baby needs me ~ <3

I love you so much my baby bunny ~ <3

I miss you hmph - December 21

I swear to God...

if you're not here before I get to finish this I swear to God I will spam our messages and tell you how much I miss you and I wanna kiss you and tell you I love you and be able to snuggle with you. ACE I wanna have your last name ;) wink wink

hehe, anyways- OMFG THE GODS HAVE HEARD ME YOU'RE AWAKE 😭

I shall cuddle you so much baby I can't wait to kiss you so hard and then kiss your forehead and cuddle you so close to my chest and make sure my baby bunny gets all the attention in the world since Koobun is already asleep :3 mwah ~ I love you my baby ! 💞

something super important - december 21

um..I thought this would be helpful..

Age regression: when somebody reverts to a child-like state of mind, often as a coping mechanism for things like PTSD, depression, anxiety, and other mental health issues. Some age regressors like to use child-like objects such as pacifiers and bottles and in some cases adult diapers as well as dressing in “childish” clothing and engaging in activities such as colouring and playing with children’s toys. Basically age regressors are more at-peace and worry-free whilst in "little space" (A term for when one is in said mindset).
Little: a person who regresses
Caregiver: someone who looks after a little while they’re in little space.
Agere/CGLRE: abbreviations for age regression.

this is just a little something I read baby..I hope the link at the bottom helps 🥺

am I pretty? - december 22

sometimes I was told to be a man...

in my last relationship, I was so dominant, you could ask Adonis or Mateo that the way I use to be, is completely different from the way I am now, all soft, cute, in skirts and bubbly..

I use to wear dark clothing to look bigger, I use to smoke and act tough too..

then, after so long, I hated it, I just wanted to wear cute undies..soft skirts..pretty blouses, especially after having Koobun..I felt..so pretty wearing that clothes..

then..you tell me you love me wearing skirts, or undies, or having a small chest..and I don't feel ashamed of what's between my legs, what kind of chest I have, or the stretch marks on my thighs and tummy..

you make me feel so pretty..you make me feel so so so pretty, and whenever you kiss each inch of me, I feel so damn good about my body..I feel so.. beautiful..

thank you..for loving each inch of me for the way it is..

intrusive thoughts - december 22

such intrusive thoughts of you lately...

your lips against mine
breaths being shared
hands roaming each other
touching those sweet spots we keep in mind
the way your large hands pins my small figure down
the way your tongue roams my mouth
or down my neck or chest
feeling every little detail as your mouth travels lower
the way I know what's coming next

yet

I gasp heavenly
gripping the soft sheets and moan in delight
your mouth never fails to surprise me

however

the real intense feeling is when
you slip in
both of us staring into each other's eyes
gasping with such delight
the clench of walls
and the thickness of length
never fails to make us trip onto each other
biting our lips at the bliss of night touching
each other

my sweet baby - december 23

hey my love...

I know you're probably not in the best state of mind right now, struggling with something so deep and you probably don't want to be here right now, because you don't want to ruin the mood around me, but honestly, it's okay baby.

I honestly feel it's best for you to talk to me about how you feel, but if you're not ready, just remember I'll be here for you no matter how long it takes baby. I'm gonna wait for you because I don't wanna give up on you my precious baby. I don't want you to let you go. I just want to help you understand it's okay to feel the way you do. I will always make your feelings feel valid my love.

I love you more than anything else in this world, and I hope you know that I'll keep holding your hand tightly in mine and keep you safe in my arms. You deserve nothing but happiness my baby bunny. I want to give you nothing but happiness. you are worth it. you are worth every single little wait, because I love you and I will never let you go.

I love you, so much..my precious baby.

yours only,

baby tiggy <3

our little family - december 23

we are a family..

a family of three
papa
mama
baby
you
me
koobun
we are a family that gets stronger together
we are a family that loves each other more than ever
I hope that you know, you are never alone
for you have a family that will always be rooting for you to get to the finish line
holding your hand tightly and telling you we love you
that you can do it
that we are proud of you

never walk alone ever again my love..never

touch me - december 25

it's a pleasure to be like this...

the way you touch me
the way you grip onto me
the way you savour my body

oh such a good feeling to have you close
have you touching each inch of me
telling me I'm yours while I beg for mercy
how you stare down at me
makes me feel so shy under
but I love such a feeling of you ruining my walls
marking my body
and I lover feeling you inside
clenching and spreading my legs for more
for you
just for you

koo calling you dada - december 27

so..

while you were asleep, I took Koobun to play with downstairs, and while looking through photos of you and me, he kept referring to you as his dada. usually he called you papa, but recently he called you dada, and I didn't have the heart to correct him, cause when it came to seeing a photo of you, he squealed so happily and kept saying dada dada, and I honestly felt my heart clench knowing our little baby boy was calling you dada, the way he loves you and trusts you to be his daddy, honestly..you make him so happy..he loves you so much baby ~

my handsome boy ~ - december 29

hey my handsome man ~