I’ve been dealing with postpartum depression since day one of having my daughter. I knew immediately that some thing was it right. I I felt like I was drowning in nothing but sorrow. I felt like I had nowhere to go and no one to turn to. I would run away from my child cries and while doing that, I would just sit and cry. I was far away from family, which made me feel very alone.
I made an appointment to go to the doctor and she explained to me what I was going through. My lovely doctor ended up prescribing me a medication to help with my anxiety. I did not like the outcome of the medication so I stopped. I decided to go back to work early to see if being in a different environment would make everything better. once I started working again I felt that depression part start lifting. I got a little bit better over time, but I still to this day have days where I feel like the world is crashing down on me and it makes me feel like I don’t want to be around my child. I get to a point where  I will begin to force myself to be in her presence. Even though it hurts I’m fighting through it.
I tell myself every single day I feel like this, that it will get better. I also tell myself that I am not alone in this and that there are people out there just like me.
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