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I am very new to this, its been forever since I’ve been wanting to do this and I finally made it!
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A blog of the struggles with mental health that we don’t talk about.
“The ehh”
The struggles we do not talk about.
Let’s call this one “the ehh”, that’s how I describe the struggles in mental health that no one really talks about. I started off with this because this is literally where I am at in my healing journey. It is just ehh.
You know how you have been fighting for years, trying different things and you actually reached the point where you felt, yes I made it!! But it’s not a ‘yes, I made it, I have no problems now’, no it’s more of a ‘yes, I made it, I know I am not okay but that is okay because I have my box of tools to help me. Yeah so, even after reaching that point and your life really takes a turn and yes there are upsetting things happening in your life currently but also, they aren’t things you can’t handle. However, for some reason you just feel so stuck. It’s like stuck in the mud. You know what to do, you know how to do it, you know your goal but for some reason you just can’t bring yourself to do it.
Now I am not saying it is impossible but I am saying it will just take 5 times the effort it normally would and that is just not sitting right with me. You are just in this battle with yourself, trying to understand ‘why aren’t I moving’, ‘do I need to rest’, ‘do I need to push myself’, ‘what do I do’.
This is literally where I am at right now.
WELCOME TO MY BLOG!
I am enjoying this so far but I want to know what you guys think about it! Send me your thoughts on “the ehh”!
“The bamboozie”
Just another made up word to describe the feelings we don’t talk about.
You know when you are deep into your healing journey and everything feels like it’s all over the place, yes I call that “the bamboozie phase”. This feeling has been on my mind lately and I can’t seem to put it into words exactly how I feel but it’s a whirlwind of emotions. Healing is tougher than the trauma, you learn things about yourself that you thought was normal or just part of your personality then healing comes along and is like jokes on you, this is a trauma response! Yup, I use humor as a coping mechanism along with making up my own words to describe how I feel.
Bamboozie to me is such a frustrating and confusing feeling, it’s a combination of im getting there and omg I can’t do this it’s too much to take on. It’s such a fragile phase because you are in the midst of finding yourself and trying to differentiate what is a trauma response and what is you setting your boundaries. Boundaries are my biggest challenge at the moment. I really am trying to stick to them and not give in but you know how guilt and people pleasing really fight hard to win.
Most times I just want to scream, just scream everything out and hope that heals all in me. Wouldn’t that be amazing?! But we are getting there, always a step closer like everyone says when they have nothing to say, it needs time! Jokes aside, this one is true time heals all.
My favorite distractions🤍!
I know we see the word distraction and we automatically think negative but there are also positive distractions and they’re sometimes needed. I was thinking of the heading I want to give this and really debated over calling it “My favorite distractions” because of the meaning everyone has in mind but also this was the best reason to pick this heading to change that narrative.
Distractions when done in a healthy way and in the right time are essential to our healing journey. Use them once you have grounded yourself, once you have got it out of your system and once you have been in the dark space for a while.
Watch movies that will make you laugh your heart out🤍
Watching comedy movies and not just feel-good movies but actual comedy that will make me laugh my heart out🤍!
Just Be Random
Just being so unapologetically random that your focus becomes on what am I doing right now rather than whatever else is on my mind. Makes me and others around me laugh and it’s now us figuring out how did we even start this conversation😂! I see that as a win for myself because it serves as the best distraction.
Make your own music video
Singing but not just karaoke, more of really living in the moment and pretending I am in my own music video😂
In my let me be phase
‘Just one of my phases’
I think this heading is pretty much understood compared to my other ones! I believe in our healing journey we go through phases so right now I am in my let me be phase.
I am usually a very “let’s not disturb others person” but now I am working on asking for support when I need it so, when I am feeling a certain emotion, I just want to be able to feel it. I do not someone to tell me “it’s okay cheer up, let’s do something that makes you feel better”. If I am angry, then let me be angry. If I am sad, then let me be sad. If I am crying, then let me cry.
Whichever emotion I am feeling, let me be in it for the moment because once we feel our emotion and express it, only then will we be able to move on from it. The only way to heal is to go through the emotions, the reason we are in positions of struggle with our mental health is because we always want to avoid or distract ourselves. If you go back to my previous article “My favorite distractions”, I talk about healthy distractions and using them once we felt our emotions.
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