Growing up, I felt free, fearless and good in my own skin. I talked too much and I was always laughing and wanting to make others laugh. I valued fun and friendship over grades. I was a great athlete and looked for the best in others. I was full of life and free spirited. But somewhere along the way I received the message that I was not as good as others. I was not smart and I was too wild. I needed to tone it down and follow a path that others told me would lead to a successful life. In that moment I started to move further and further away from my true spirit. I became a people pleaser and desperately wanted to be liked and loved by others. I had no idea how to be myself and was too afraid to ever say I felt lost, alone and often times broken. I had lots of masks and lots of unhealthy coping mechanisms. I gave myself freely to anyone who showed me interest or affection and in the process I believe sold my soul to fit in. I started using drugs and alcohol early in life to stuff the feelings of not belonging and relax the crippling self doubt I felt. I continued to use drugs and alcohol later in life to cope with the shame and guilt I had developed from living a life so far out of alignment.
This lead to the most toxic and abusive relationship of all. A relationship that further eroded any self esteem I had left and gaslighting that left me believing I was worthless and incapable of caring for myself and my children. So I stayed in the abuse and shame for 12 years.

I was told I was an alcoholic by many, but like many of my generation, I did not know alcoholism was a progressive disease and that without help I would continue to get worse. I got worse and the disease continued to chip away at my soul for 4 decades.

Fast forward to 2017 and my last treatment center. One final act of surrender and a true desire to move back to the girl I was who loved herself and her life. I left the abuse and the brokeness from it and over the last 5 years have built and independent life I truly love while raising my two beautiful children.
I knew when I got sober, I wanted to share my story in order to help others who like me might feel stuck by circumstance or some poor choices. Women who want to change their own lives and their legacy .

I share the details here now so that others can know that it is never too late to re-discover yourself. Today my passion is to help other women find self love and to honor their freedom to express themselves fully. I believe the greatest form of self-love is taking care of our mind, body and spirit in a way that makes us feel excited for our life.
I believe that in loving ourselves fully, we are able to love others in the same way. Opening the pathway to better, healthier, more loving relationships. I have found a way to live a life of joy regardless of the past or present circumstances. To wake up with gratitude, and to celebrate every moment. I would love to help you do the same.

My sincerest desire is to fan the flames in others and to help you manifest the life of your dreams.