I am made of stars that shines even in the darkest. An introvert yet extrovert when my pixie’s of mood swings would burst. My way of listening to music makes my body move and groove, not a professional dancer but a frustrated singer.
I wrote drafts of my stories and poetries on my secret journal where I don’t want anyone to read it. Galaxy of words would literally flood my mind everyday that no one would actually understand its stars.
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Entering the University was very scary. Seeing different and new faces had my anxiety level go up. But meeting these people (Dinner dates) made me feel that I was still the K in High school. My first ever university family
BMLS 2E. One of the best class I had in the university. In here, I had experience a lot of fun with no judgements. They literally helped me in overcoming all my fears.
Last school year was very exhausting. The new normal platform for education was implemented. We were the first batch of K-12 and yet we are also the first batch entering third year through online class
How time flies so fast. It was like my first day stepping at the gates of the University and now it is my last school year and will be stepping out to the real world soon
After 5 years I finally wore the best and my most favorite OOTD this 2023. I never thought that I would get this far because I did experienced a lot of hurricanes in my life. “Malayo pa, pero malayo na” I’ve made it! I got my degree! Getting that RMT license is prolly my next goal
EUPHORIA
My sweet remedy
You gave me euphoria
An ecstasy
That leads me in paranoia
The epitome hue
In my mediocre
The one that fixed me,
My rapture
CIRCINUS
Walking at the shore
With a view of purple skies
You were beside me
Where sunset abide
You lead me to paradise
Where I discovered dawn and dusk
You were both my sunset and sunrise
My love, my circinus
FAIREST OF THEM ALL
I entered the room
And saw a golden mirror
Zoomed it in, seeing—
My flaws were getting clearer
Not the fairest, nor the finest
My courage became fewer
Neglected my self by asking—
How can I be better?
WEST
As the sun sets
The dusk conquer
Luna will risen
Stars then wander
Aurora can be seen
At the night sky above
Shooting stars will fall
Similar to my love
CAELUM
The sweetest smile
I have ever seen
Was hidden in you
Like alluring sky
Enchanted haven
A beautiful hue
UNIVERSE
I constantly reckon
Different dimension is true
It is not merely a myth
It might be a place with much vivid hue
If it really existed
My only wish was you
For I will be happy
In being loved by you
NOT MY REMORSE
I had doubted you
Since we were together
Yet, all the doubts
Were true and will hurt forever
As I grow and glow
I know that I wasn’t your heather
You weren’t the remorse
That I had weepingly conquer
LILAC
Your love is like
An alluring sky
A crystal clear
Ocean smile
The beauty in your eyes
Was like pouring rain-
Glittering, genuine
A memorable stain
DEAR READER,
Trust the timing of your life. You are never early and never late. You are at the right time in just slower pace.
I’m a beaut, I need sincerity.
I’m a gold, I need security.
I do my own thing, I’m independent.
I care of others thoughts, I’m kind.
I have dislikes, I am not a hypocrite.
I have a heart, it’s fragile.
You may use different techniques that may help you in memorizing/familiarizing your lessons. I know that studying is quite boring but you need to find your study habit now before its too late.
Study now, laude laterFor a couple of weeks or months you will have your own circle. If someone needs help in understanding a certain subject please help them. You wouldn’t know maybe next time when you need help they may also return the favor.
Friends are for lifeI am aware that it would be nice to go to bed after using our phones or coming home from class. Yes, going to sleep is okay, but don't forget to read your books. Just one page or one chapter will do! Please work on this technique so that it would be simple for you to understand and that you wouldn't have to cram on exam day. This is a really useful promise!
Cram is for the weakThis is really really helpful. But of course don’t just pray for yourself. You should also pray for your friends or for the whole batch to pass you exams and quizzes
Prayer worksIf you are sleepy or you are tired just rest or go to sleep. Don’t force it because your brain cannot absorb it all, specially when you are really really tired. Remember even cellphones run out of battery.
Health is wealthI know there are people here who like to do things a minute or two before the deadline because that's where best ideas come out. Well, I would personally tell you that you must not do that, because you might get used to it. Been there, done that, and I regret it.
Work earlyWe all know that when it's allowance day, we're all excited because our everyday food is no longer pancit canton, eggs, or corned beef. But mind you, if you spend your allowance at the beginning of the week (which is Monday-Tuesday) there is a possibility that your money for the rest of the week will not be enough (applicable for weekly allowance). Because you tend to eat and spend all you want on Mondays and Tuesdays, not knowing there is also Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.
Spend money wiselyThis really helped me in budgeting my money. Like legit. For example, you will spend a lot of money on Wednesday because you want to eat out, so you will spend like above 500 or 1000 that day. On the next day, your expenses should not reach 200 above. And I'll assure you that when next week comes, you will be very happy because your allowance has increased because you still have the money you saved.
Save > Spend
If life would throw you flowers remember to keep your feet on the ground. Never look down or laugh at other people’s experiences just because you are already successful. Tables will always and forever will turn. So be kind.
I am a living testament that oversharing may trigger evil eyes. Sometimes it’s better to keep it in yourself if there is a good news coming. You can share it with your closest friends but always be careful. You will never know who are true with their intentions.
People nowadays may use your kindness for them to fulfill their pleasures. Saying no doesn’t mean you are already a bad person, saying no means, you are respecting your self and giving boundaries to people who don’t deserve your help.
Use your money more for your needs and not your wants. You can use several techniques in budgeting your money such as tracking your expenses and weighing the needs & the wants.
Never depend your happiness on other people. Being happy with yourself or with your presence alone is enough.
You don’t need to impress and please others just for you to feel loved. Accepting and loving yourself is more than enough. Accept your flaws, focus on your happiness, and improve yourself not for others but for you and you only.
Blocking/muting is really healthy for your mental health. I have snoozed and block multiple people in my socials & in person and it gave me a peace of mind. Never let them ruin your serenity.
Without him, we are nothing. In those dark days, God will always be our light. Trust in him and have faith in him, then your life will be complete.
During the review, I was kind of lost. I don’t know where to start reading, what subject I should read first, or how to start writing my notes. Tbh, I was really sad about my scores during my review because I couldn’t reach the exact passing score. I was unmotivated, emotionally unstable (because of pressure, expectations, and being afraid of failure +++ overthinking every night), and physically tired (due to the early sessions of our review).
Messy sleeping patterns, uncountable caffeine consumption, breakouts and breakdowns—it was really a long roller coaster ride for the months of June and July. But I am still thankful to the people who were always there for me—to comfort me, assure me, and believe in my strength
I never forget to pray every day and every night and ask for his guidance because I know that our Almighty God has great plans for me, and I surrender them all to him, and he does not fail me.
This chapter marks a new milestone for me. I will always remember what God taught me about this journey: be humble, stay kind, have faith, and let go of all the excess baggage I’ve been carrying.
So, cheers to me and to my friends na RMT na! Finally finally I MADE IT! WE MADE IT!
When I was 1 year old I was diagnosed of Intestinal obstruction secondary to congenital bond
I have Tourette’s syndrome
My mother is half chinese & my father is half spanish
I get hungry every hour
I have an obsession in shoes
I wrote some of my poems based on imagination
In our family, I am and will always be the one call MD (Magandang Driver)
Driving, journaling, poetry & dancing are my coping mechanisms
Graduated and got my licensed at 24
I’m sensitive AF
I’m already at the phase of keeping quiet about the decisions I’ve been making and about all the great things that’s coming for me. Well, I really love the silence and the flow of how my life is changing for the better. All my prayers were answered by God.
Being lowkey does give me peace of mind and a satisfying life. Winning my silent battles in secret literally deepens the sea that I’m sailing.
For the past few years, I have been so vocal about everything through my social media accounts. And maybe that’s why some things unexpectedly went wrong. But in the bright side it made me realized that some things aren’t worth telling. And yes, it was literally the reason why I suddenly kept quiet on all my social media (all you can see are only shared posts and memes, pictures with small details, and me doing tiktoks).
And I believe in the saying “Never let people know what’s your next move. Let them wonder”
I’ve been thinking about death lately. I even want to make a beautiful eulogy for myself. But I don’t know where or how to start because I get terrified whenever I want to write about it.
Thoughts of death would always slip through my mind every single day, and I don’t know why. Maybe it is a sign? A warning? Or a message? I hope it isn’t a warning, because I’m scared. Even thinking about dying would give me shivers.
Well, death is really a powerful word that even I can’t comprehend. I am afraid of death. But I can’t run from it because it will continue to haunt me even if I hide in the corner of a dark cage in a faraway land. Death will forever come, and there is no escape.
To be honest, I did feel lost after graduating and passing the board exam. Like I don’t know what path to take.
After the boards, I spent my 2-month vacation here in our province, specifically here in our house. In the span of 10 weeks, I’ve been ruminating about my life. What's the next step to take, or what’s my initial plan to be successful. I seek God's help by praying and asking for guidance. Then he never failed me. He then gave me a sign, which led me to do the next step (which is a secret because I don’t want others to know it). I am currently in the process of making that plan because I’m still waiting for something. So, while waiting, I ended up applying to a tertiary hospital. And I’ve been hired since October 27 and am currently working there with other medtechs.
I have realized that being lost in life is really normal. It is a phase where we tend to think deeply about our plans in life and what we should do to become happily successful. In my opinion, it’s better to keep the pace slow and never rush your decisions because it might lead to disaster (actually, not all rush decisions are disasters; it also depends on the situation).
Just keep calm and breathe. Don’t stress yourself because other people find it easy to pass a rocky road. Always remember that your pacing is more important because rocky or rough roads make the driver stronger.
Where do I find my peace? I find peace in writing my thoughts when no one wants to listen to them, I find peace in playing some music using my headphones, I find peace in listening to the waves on the shore, I find peace in driving my car, and I find peace in praying to God about all my worries.
Finding my peace is all about having a quality time with myself. Letting myself breathe for a moment & enjoying my company alone. It is the time where I let myself relax by removing the stressors that have been stressing me.
We all know that peace starts within us by loving, accepting, understanding and caring for ourselves first before others. It’s not being selfish, it’s giving respect to yourself and taking a good care of your soul.
Life doesn’t require you to have many friends. It is not a competition if who’s having more and it will not define you as a person. For me, finding friends is like collecting treasures. No matter what the appearance or shape of the treasure you will always value it because it’s priceless.
“Quality over quantity” this is what I think about friendship. No matter how small your circle is, the most important thing is that; they are real, genuine, be there for you through the highs and lows, and understands you no matter how messy you are.
Friends are like treasures, if you value them they’ll shine for you. And if you lose them (specially the real ones) because of your ego, then you will never find someone who would treat you the way they genuinely care for you.
We may stumble or fall a hundred times in our lives. But we should always remember to stand and lift our heads. Be proud of what you’ve experienced in life because it is the reason for who you are today and how far you’ve come.
Sometimes those hardships and dark times were the water that helped our seed grow and become a beautiful, elegant flower.
It may rain thunderstorms a couple of times, but in the end, we always see a magical rainbow fleeting.
Not all bad days are bad luck. Some bad days gave you enough courage to fight for your ultimate goal in life, which may help you grow into a better and wiser person
I did not graduate at the age of 23, but at least I am blessed with my parents, friends, and special someone (I am not begging for love or looking for it anymore because I have them who have loved me unconditionally). And the most important thing is that I learned a lesson. I suffered a lot of thunderstorms before getting the rainbow. And I believe that in every tough situation, great things will come. We are always blessed in some way.
As what I saw on a Facebook post, even if you graduate late, as long as you are happy with your work (plus points if your work is related to the course you graduated from and the license that you got) it is one of the victories that you’ve accomplished in your life.
“I’m still lucky even though I’m late because God blessed me a lesson & happiness” I did it with firm determination and I survived the 3 phases of life (kalisod, pag paningkamot ug kalipay)
𝙁𝙖𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙧𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙖 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚
Failure doesn’t define a person. Failure, rejections or disappointments helps a person grow and do better.
It is indeed a good thing to see these challenges in a positive way. We should not let our dim views affect our present performance because our future will be affected too.
In life, we need to always think about the bright side. Just like the burnt-toast theory that has been circulating on socmed. Maybe it’s just a delay because bigger things are coming.
No matter what happens never blame or pity yourself because your time will come when it is right.
If I would meet my younger self, these would be the things I’d tell her:
OH HEY, FOR BEST VIEWING, YOU'LL NEED TO TURN YOUR PHONE